When it all comes down to simple need

When it all goes down to into a deep black hole

You’re all alone, all alone

You want to run but you have no destination ahead of you

So many versions of the truth

Scared to believe any of them

Scared to find out what could hurt you

So I hide away in my dark cold room

Shut away every thought about you

Close my eyes so tightly cause I don’t want to see

Stop my heart from bleeding out

Scream out loud and hope it counts

Push my limbs and bones further

Stretch my spine

Put my head up high

Act like I’m on top of the world

Act like I’m invincible

Truth is behind my painted smile

There is a girl struggling

There is a girl screaming

She wants to survive

She wants to let go

She wants to believe that everything will be all right.

I dipped my feet in too deep
I fell in
Realized I couldn't swim
Now I'm drowning in my own tears

Confusing

Sometimes I just want to scream in your face
Throw my hands in the air
and let it out
But everytime I want to shout
My heart weakens and it's not fair

You always find a way
To shut me up completely
When I'm out of words I can only pout
I cannot break out in anger or in tears

All I want is to play along
To those games you set your own rules to
But I lose every time I make a move
You're on fire one day and freeze me up the next
With you I am always lost

Mr emotionally unavailable

I knock on your door
You open it only halfway
we only get to talk on your front porch
we sit close to each other yet we don't touch
I say I  love you....you turn away and sigh....