You're my disease

I see the rain fall outside my window
It reminds me of the tears I hold in so tightly inside
Life's not easy
I know that
But why can't I be happy with you?
You keep hurting me
I've gone through so much pain
Sometimes I wonder if you care
you may say you do
but i don't believe you
Cause all i can hear you say is sorry
It's like a broken record
repeating on and on in my head
How many times more do you want to apologize?
If you love me, make me happy
say sweet things
hold my hand
and avoid those tears lining up at the corner of my eyes
One day, you'll realize that I'm no longer there
cause I have died from a disease called YOU

There's a stranger in my life

I’ve been searching for that place

The place where I feel safe

I tried to feel it in your arms

I tried to see it in your eyes

But all you do is lie

I’ve had my comfort and ideal place to stay

But it’s like I’m losing my balance

I fall and I slip

No matter what I do

I will never be able to change you

All these promises you broke

All the lies you told

All those joints you lit

Sometimes I think I’m such a fool

I stay in a place where there is endless rain

Only blurry images are to be seen on my window pain

It seems like the sun has forgotten how to shine

So I’ll tell myself a lie

I tell myself that you love me and that everything will be all right