You're my disease

I see the rain fall outside my window
It reminds me of the tears I hold in so tightly inside
Life's not easy
I know that
But why can't I be happy with you?
You keep hurting me
I've gone through so much pain
Sometimes I wonder if you care
you may say you do
but i don't believe you
Cause all i can hear you say is sorry
It's like a broken record
repeating on and on in my head
How many times more do you want to apologize?
If you love me, make me happy
say sweet things
hold my hand
and avoid those tears lining up at the corner of my eyes
One day, you'll realize that I'm no longer there
cause I have died from a disease called YOU